First and foremost, I'm relieved that the rain is no longer (greatly) affecting my emotions. I could sit by the balcony with a mug of hot chocolate (or warm milk, depending on the time) and read my favorite book while the clouds pour its sadness.
I mean, sure, the memories will arise like ashes, but that doesn't mean I should let it continuously affect me, right? I've been wallowing in those negative reminiscences and emotions for too long now; it's gone as far as to messing with my psyche - and I need out before it sucks me deeper into the dark abyss.
If there's another thing I've learned from a very dear friend of mine, the aura radiated by the people around you matters a lot. Trust comes from the actions instead of words; sure, everyone wants to stick around for the fun times, but they will not hesitate to 'split and spit' during the bad/trying times. It's like the wedding vows, if you ask me. When you exchange vows with your fiancé/fiancée and taking him/her as your beloved, you promise to be there - for better or for worse, in sickness and in health.
Secondly, I know that I'm shedding another part of my former self: I used to take great offence whenever someone tried to take a swipe at me, but I couldn't be bothered much about people's comments or impressions about me now - especially since there are some faces who will never be pleased no matter what you do. It's either you take me for who I am or leave it.
The consequences of stooping to gain a person's satisfaction or friendship have been a companion of mine when I was growing up. It made me realize that as difficult as it may be, I need to walk away if people are only there to reap the benefits instead. Look, I'm answerable to God and my parents, no one else. It's all that matters.
Like what Dr. Seuss said (and I'm paraphrasing his quote), only the opinions of those who matter needs to be acknowledged.
And that says a lot.
And that's the end of my sudden outburst. I'll be candor; something recent has made me so irritated that it tested my limited patience. *sighs*
Dr. Seuss.. a wise man. I also like the quote - not sure who it's from, but goes like this - "what others think of me is none of my business." ;-)
ReplyDeleteThat's a good quote too, Yum List. ^^
DeleteIf a person thinks I am not worthy to be his/her friend, then he/she is not worthy to be my friend. That's my life motto.
ReplyDeleteYou mean, like 以牙还牙, CL? But yes, that's actually a really good motto to live by. =)
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