Thursday, April 9, 2020
Nothing But Regrets
Shrouded in mystery was a weary child,
Who desired for permanent rest.
Buried amidst her roller-coaster emotions
Were the aspirations she once held.
With a clouded vision,
She watched her dreams burn to the ground.
With a broken heart,
She walked away from all she fought for.
Hidden from the light
Is her bone-tired soul.
Alone in her thoughts,
She craves for those comforting days.
Stability once enveloped her,
With exuberance swimming in her veins.
Confidence once protected her,
With strength being her shield.
Peering into the dark abyss,
Her muscles relaxes into a puddle,
Knowing that it’ll be over soon,
The draining moments in her life.
Tuesday, April 7, 2020
Surviving the Social Distance for MCO
Author’s Note: Seeing that we’re in the midst of the extended MCO, I figured that this would be an adequate filler post. Do note that this was an article that I previously pitched for.
Source: Wallpaper Access
As we all are aware of, the Prime Minister initially announced that a restricted movement order (RMO) or a movement control order (MCO) - depending on which term you’re comfortable with - would be in effect from 18th March until 31st March 2020. About a week before the end of the March, an extended MCO was placed in effect until 14th April 2020 with further updates on 10th April 2020. This calls for the importance of social distance to prevent the further spread of Covid-19 and hopefully flatten the curve, but it comes at a price. Humans are known to be communal creatures that need to be in contact with other people. Loneliness might creep in as a result, especially when we have to spend more time indoors. With that in mind, I’ll attempt to share a handful of tips that might assist in combat loneliness while we all ride out the duration of the RMO.
Maintaining Contact via Technology
One of the pertinent tips that I can recommend is reaching out. In this day and age, most people have access to a mobile device and Internet, if not a fixed line. Furthermore, there are a wide array of applications that you’re able to choose from, i.e. Messenger, Skype, and WhatsApp. This accessibility makes it easier for you when you catch up with family and friends this way. By staying in frequent contact with them, you know that you have a support system that you can reach out to whenever you’re feeling lonely. There’s a chance that they share the same loneliness as you. You’ll feel much better emotionally and mentally after reaching out to family and friends and speaking to them.
Having a Pet
I understand that having a pet has its health benefits, especially in reducing loneliness amongst the lonely. But this tip would be of use if you are already owning a pet beforehand. You shouldn’t rush to the nearest shelter to adopt a pet just to survive the RMO. A pet is somewhat like a friend by your side at all times. Even though it’s unable to express itself with words, it certainly makes its presence and love for you known through its body language and antics. This is why spending time with your pet is one of the best methods possible. It eradicates loneliness and re-directs your focus to be on your pet with the assurance that you’re never alone.
Learning Something New
Source: Womenosophy.com
If you’re neither a fan of technology nor a pet owner, you could dabble in something that you’ve always wanted to learn, but either lacked the time or motivation to do so. Now would be the best time. It can be anything from knitting to baking, as long as you’ve the interest and patience to learn. The Internet is already the perfect place for you to start searching for tutorials with lots of it being uploaded to YouTube and forums. There are step-by-step guides for learners with different techniques for you to make a start. While it keeps your loneliness at bay, it can be a time-addictive interest where you’ll spend day and night fixated on honing your skill. You won’t feel so bored being stuck indoors for the duration of the RMO.
Catching Up on Your Favorite Series
Another tip would be to binge watch on your favorite series either through the TV or on YouTube. Since life previously took precedence with its responsibilities, you can take this opportunity to catch up on all of the missed episodes of your favorite show. If you’re up for the challenge or in the mood for a new show, you could even browse through Netflix’s library, provided that you have a registered account with them. Fret not if you don’t have access to any streaming services. There are a handful of older drama series that have been uploaded to YouTube.
This is a preview of the Kobo homepage on an Android. You can download the app and register for an account via Google Play Store or Apple Store.
Reading
If the small screen isn’t your forte, reading might be something that you can consider. It doesn’t matter whether you desire to read via a Kindle, a Kobo app, or the old school method of having a book in your hands. You should always procure a book with a plot that you can throw yourself into. The two examples that I can think at the top of my head would be Nicholas Sparks’s “The Best of Me” and Jojo Moyers’s “Me Before You”, where the bittersweet plot will tug at your heart. Have a mug of your favorite drink within reach and nestle at a quiet area and you’re ready to immerse yourself in the fictional world. Personally speaking, this particular tip has aided me in this testy time as it takes my mind off reality where news is accessible 24/7 and the continual exposure to it.
Praying
Last but not least, if you’re someone who practices religion, you may want to consider using this time to pray and connect with God in silence. It might be of assistance in the sense that you feel like someone’s there, keeping an eye out for your safety and ensuring that you won’t be alone.
With that being said, this is a never-ending list. You’re more than welcome to use some of these tips as a guide to come up with your own ways to combat loneliness during the partial lockdown.
Source: Wallpaper Access
As we all are aware of, the Prime Minister initially announced that a restricted movement order (RMO) or a movement control order (MCO) - depending on which term you’re comfortable with - would be in effect from 18th March until 31st March 2020. About a week before the end of the March, an extended MCO was placed in effect until 14th April 2020 with further updates on 10th April 2020. This calls for the importance of social distance to prevent the further spread of Covid-19 and hopefully flatten the curve, but it comes at a price. Humans are known to be communal creatures that need to be in contact with other people. Loneliness might creep in as a result, especially when we have to spend more time indoors. With that in mind, I’ll attempt to share a handful of tips that might assist in combat loneliness while we all ride out the duration of the RMO.
Maintaining Contact via Technology
One of the pertinent tips that I can recommend is reaching out. In this day and age, most people have access to a mobile device and Internet, if not a fixed line. Furthermore, there are a wide array of applications that you’re able to choose from, i.e. Messenger, Skype, and WhatsApp. This accessibility makes it easier for you when you catch up with family and friends this way. By staying in frequent contact with them, you know that you have a support system that you can reach out to whenever you’re feeling lonely. There’s a chance that they share the same loneliness as you. You’ll feel much better emotionally and mentally after reaching out to family and friends and speaking to them.
Having a Pet
I understand that having a pet has its health benefits, especially in reducing loneliness amongst the lonely. But this tip would be of use if you are already owning a pet beforehand. You shouldn’t rush to the nearest shelter to adopt a pet just to survive the RMO. A pet is somewhat like a friend by your side at all times. Even though it’s unable to express itself with words, it certainly makes its presence and love for you known through its body language and antics. This is why spending time with your pet is one of the best methods possible. It eradicates loneliness and re-directs your focus to be on your pet with the assurance that you’re never alone.
Learning Something New
Source: Womenosophy.com
If you’re neither a fan of technology nor a pet owner, you could dabble in something that you’ve always wanted to learn, but either lacked the time or motivation to do so. Now would be the best time. It can be anything from knitting to baking, as long as you’ve the interest and patience to learn. The Internet is already the perfect place for you to start searching for tutorials with lots of it being uploaded to YouTube and forums. There are step-by-step guides for learners with different techniques for you to make a start. While it keeps your loneliness at bay, it can be a time-addictive interest where you’ll spend day and night fixated on honing your skill. You won’t feel so bored being stuck indoors for the duration of the RMO.
Catching Up on Your Favorite Series
Another tip would be to binge watch on your favorite series either through the TV or on YouTube. Since life previously took precedence with its responsibilities, you can take this opportunity to catch up on all of the missed episodes of your favorite show. If you’re up for the challenge or in the mood for a new show, you could even browse through Netflix’s library, provided that you have a registered account with them. Fret not if you don’t have access to any streaming services. There are a handful of older drama series that have been uploaded to YouTube.
This is a preview of the Kobo homepage on an Android. You can download the app and register for an account via Google Play Store or Apple Store.
Reading
If the small screen isn’t your forte, reading might be something that you can consider. It doesn’t matter whether you desire to read via a Kindle, a Kobo app, or the old school method of having a book in your hands. You should always procure a book with a plot that you can throw yourself into. The two examples that I can think at the top of my head would be Nicholas Sparks’s “The Best of Me” and Jojo Moyers’s “Me Before You”, where the bittersweet plot will tug at your heart. Have a mug of your favorite drink within reach and nestle at a quiet area and you’re ready to immerse yourself in the fictional world. Personally speaking, this particular tip has aided me in this testy time as it takes my mind off reality where news is accessible 24/7 and the continual exposure to it.
Praying
Last but not least, if you’re someone who practices religion, you may want to consider using this time to pray and connect with God in silence. It might be of assistance in the sense that you feel like someone’s there, keeping an eye out for your safety and ensuring that you won’t be alone.
With that being said, this is a never-ending list. You’re more than welcome to use some of these tips as a guide to come up with your own ways to combat loneliness during the partial lockdown.
Saturday, April 4, 2020
Uncensored Thoughts
I’m bone-tired with everything that has happened. As what my close friend pointed out as of late, I’m mentally holding to something that we’re not sure exists anymore.
Happiness.
What constitutes happiness?
It’s a subjective question with an individualistic answer. Ask three people this question and you’ll get three different answers. Some may define happiness as having the love of their life by their side and watching the sunset together. Some may define happiness as being in the loving arms of their family. Some may elaborate more on it and explain that it means doing what they love to do as a job.
What about me?
For me, happiness is having a stable life (as anyone who’s experienced trauma would appreciate), having job security, financial independence, and having friends that I know would catch me if and when I fall. If I’m being honest, it’s arduous to achieve because I’m clueless as to whether it’d even happen. Seeing that financial independence is something that’s talked about regularly but rarely acted upon because of life’ s responsibilities, it’s hard to ascertain whether we’d all be exuberant. Some of us would have financial commitments like housing loan, car loan, credit card payments, and maybe on top of supporting our families. Some of us, well, may be fortunate enough to have parental assistance in the form of a down payment towards a vehicle or a residence.
Yet there are some of us who project happiness in an attempt to hide our truest emotions. Say, we’re feeling emotionally down but are unable or unwilling to let anyone around us know about it. Or that we’re experiencing something terrible - alone.
Hopefully, once this is all done and dusted, we would all be able to venture in search of our true happiness and place this behind us.
Happiness.
What constitutes happiness?
It’s a subjective question with an individualistic answer. Ask three people this question and you’ll get three different answers. Some may define happiness as having the love of their life by their side and watching the sunset together. Some may define happiness as being in the loving arms of their family. Some may elaborate more on it and explain that it means doing what they love to do as a job.
What about me?
For me, happiness is having a stable life (as anyone who’s experienced trauma would appreciate), having job security, financial independence, and having friends that I know would catch me if and when I fall. If I’m being honest, it’s arduous to achieve because I’m clueless as to whether it’d even happen. Seeing that financial independence is something that’s talked about regularly but rarely acted upon because of life’ s responsibilities, it’s hard to ascertain whether we’d all be exuberant. Some of us would have financial commitments like housing loan, car loan, credit card payments, and maybe on top of supporting our families. Some of us, well, may be fortunate enough to have parental assistance in the form of a down payment towards a vehicle or a residence.
Yet there are some of us who project happiness in an attempt to hide our truest emotions. Say, we’re feeling emotionally down but are unable or unwilling to let anyone around us know about it. Or that we’re experiencing something terrible - alone.
Hopefully, once this is all done and dusted, we would all be able to venture in search of our true happiness and place this behind us.
Friday, April 3, 2020
It's only Day 17...
Author’s Note: This was written in advance, so there might be some unforeseen changes by the time this post is published.
Watching the statistics (including the number of deaths) steadily rise on a daily basis is frightening due to a variety of reasons. It illustrates the possibility of the order - and I mean the RMO/CMO - only being called off at a later date. It’s something that none of us can take the risk on because salaries and jobs are on the line. Some of us may not even be able to weather the storm in such a stressful period, especially with the predictions of an oncoming recession in the background. Look, I understand the importance of being indoors to avoid the risk of being infected and infecting others. I also comprehend that you’ll argue that life matters more than the economy and jobs, but I’ll opine that both are as equally important since one can’t survive without the other. If lives are lost, there won’t be any individuals to fill in the vacancies, that’s true. If the economy weakens with a significant record of retrenchments and job losses, lives would still be affected. There would be some whose mental health would cave in at this period, leading them to take the easy way out.
It sounds like I’m exaggerating, but the likelihood is there.
It’s only been 17 days since the announcement of the order and I’m already running out of ideas to kill the boredom. My hands are also itching to return to work. Mama Carrie suggested that I should rest my mind (since the past couple of months have been hectic - weaving in and out of two positions and guiding a new colleague as well) until it’s officially time to return. But the thing is I’m not sure if I’d like to do so. Sleeping day and night has its benefits - one of which would be me looking radiant and happier.
Having to wait for another 21 - 22 days would be arduous, seeing that I’m someone who likes working. My brain craves being on the go now because I’m worried about my job since anything can happen. Worries about job security is basically on everyone’s minds now - plus we’d like our freedom again. Another reason being that with the excess free time, it’s allowing me to overthink matters. The stuff that I’ve divulged to my close friend is not meant for public knowledge, not because of its level of darkness but because of the sensitive information in it. Think of it as me emotionally bearing my soul - without the protective layers - to the person. My emotions are on a rollercoaster ride of its own - going from resignation to acceptance and onward to annoyance followed by fear.
*sighs*
I was once okay with spending this much time indoors and that was because of Big Fat. Having him rest at my feet or within a visible reach soothed my nerves. If I was bored and wanted company, I could easily head off to where he was and have a small chat with him. Or hold his paw in the silence. I know, not many dogs would accept their owners holding their paw to sleep. Sometimes Big Fat reaches out to me and gives me a whiff when he spies me being asleep.
Since things have changed, spending lots of time indoors isn’t exactly viable for me. It makes me nervous and scared of what is to come.
Watching the statistics (including the number of deaths) steadily rise on a daily basis is frightening due to a variety of reasons. It illustrates the possibility of the order - and I mean the RMO/CMO - only being called off at a later date. It’s something that none of us can take the risk on because salaries and jobs are on the line. Some of us may not even be able to weather the storm in such a stressful period, especially with the predictions of an oncoming recession in the background. Look, I understand the importance of being indoors to avoid the risk of being infected and infecting others. I also comprehend that you’ll argue that life matters more than the economy and jobs, but I’ll opine that both are as equally important since one can’t survive without the other. If lives are lost, there won’t be any individuals to fill in the vacancies, that’s true. If the economy weakens with a significant record of retrenchments and job losses, lives would still be affected. There would be some whose mental health would cave in at this period, leading them to take the easy way out.
It sounds like I’m exaggerating, but the likelihood is there.
It’s only been 17 days since the announcement of the order and I’m already running out of ideas to kill the boredom. My hands are also itching to return to work. Mama Carrie suggested that I should rest my mind (since the past couple of months have been hectic - weaving in and out of two positions and guiding a new colleague as well) until it’s officially time to return. But the thing is I’m not sure if I’d like to do so. Sleeping day and night has its benefits - one of which would be me looking radiant and happier.
Having to wait for another 21 - 22 days would be arduous, seeing that I’m someone who likes working. My brain craves being on the go now because I’m worried about my job since anything can happen. Worries about job security is basically on everyone’s minds now - plus we’d like our freedom again. Another reason being that with the excess free time, it’s allowing me to overthink matters. The stuff that I’ve divulged to my close friend is not meant for public knowledge, not because of its level of darkness but because of the sensitive information in it. Think of it as me emotionally bearing my soul - without the protective layers - to the person. My emotions are on a rollercoaster ride of its own - going from resignation to acceptance and onward to annoyance followed by fear.
*sighs*
I was once okay with spending this much time indoors and that was because of Big Fat. Having him rest at my feet or within a visible reach soothed my nerves. If I was bored and wanted company, I could easily head off to where he was and have a small chat with him. Or hold his paw in the silence. I know, not many dogs would accept their owners holding their paw to sleep. Sometimes Big Fat reaches out to me and gives me a whiff when he spies me being asleep.
Since things have changed, spending lots of time indoors isn’t exactly viable for me. It makes me nervous and scared of what is to come.
Thursday, April 2, 2020
Another Truest Thoughts
In search of that peaceful place
She calls home.
Away from the earthly burdens,
And the mental tortures,
A space where she is free and herself.
A longing for the past.
Her shoulders are burdened with broken dreams
And torn by disappointment.
Her heart is weighed by exhaustion.
Her soul is broken down by a fractured mind.
Her tears flow deep in the night,
Away from listening ears and curious eyes.
Mixed in the salty solution is her hurt
And shattered hopes.
Ones that she’ll never speak of.
Wednesday, April 1, 2020
A mix and match of thoughts
I dreamt that I paced the 2nd floor of an abandoned shopping mall. The lift foyer was completely dark, devoid of any lights except for the ones illuminating the area whenever the doors open for a second. The floor itself was barely lit. It was borderline musty as well.
The next scene involved me being in another building - one with windows. Like loads of it. I attended a conference with my luggage in tow. Due to the mismanagement of planning on my part, I was to rush to the airport to catch my flight once the event was over. As I was about to keep my luggage in a staff-only pantry, someone greeted me at the door with a Caucasian in tow. Both were panting and had panicky eyes. The Caucasian wanted to know where the SAT exam was. My fellow volunteer pronounced it as the past tense of sit whereas I immediately knew what the Caucasian meant. She meant the widely used college admissions test in the States. I then guided her to the examination venue.
The camera panned to the next scene where I was in a room full of people. There was so much chatter that it deafened me. It was just that obstreperous. When the person bent over the table rose to his full height and our eyes met, I instantly realized that it was my college friend. Again, he looked different from what I remembered. His attire was neat yet there was something in his eyes… as if the expression he wore bordered between a thug and a resting bitch face. It was hours later that I lugged my luggage past a sign that read GC and there were people gathered on the silky lawn, minding their own business. The signage even had flowers planted around it.
Let's begin the dream interpretation.
For the abandoned shopping mall, an online interpretation revealed that 'To be overwhelmed but the abandoned building can suggest that you wish to hide away in life. If the buildings have been vacant for a considerable amount of time and that this is closed fairly tight the representation of the psyche. Buildings generally represent our own emotions, problems, and changes'. This is a tad bit too close for comfort for one main reason: it's a reflection of how my mental state of mind is at the current moment. Neither do I want to stand in the crowd nor do I want any attention to be brought on myself whatsoever. I'd rather remain a wallflower and observing everyone in the silence. Since it is an empty building, there's a good chance that the matters I'm dealing with are snowballing in effect. And it's not bringing a positive impact on me.
For my luggage, one of the websites indicated that 'Negatively, luggage may represent the burden of your responsibilities and emotional problems that follow you around. Emotional “baggage” you have problems letting go of. Behavior that may be too high maintenance. Problems you to constantly deal with or talk about. Children you need to look after. Alternatively, dream of luggage may represents a wish to experience something different. You may wish to leave the past behind you or show other people how different you are.' Again, I completely relate to this as my subconscious is sinking from the emotional weight that I'm carrying. No matter how I try to resolve (a particular thing), it just keeps popping out of nowhere and reminding me that I'm a failure. Only my close friend is aware of its extent. I'm batshit sure that if I'm given a chance, I'd trade certain elements for something better. Something that'll soothe the gnawing pain in my heart as well.
For the college friend, how shall I elaborate on his presence in the dream? It's the umpteenth time where he has made himself known, but what stood out was the look he shot me with. It wasn't one laced with anger, but one of unfamiliar familiarity; like me being there brought reminiscence of the things he wanted to forget. Maybe I'm a familiar stranger to him in real life, who knows? However, I read somewhere that psychologically speaking, if you dream of someone, it means that person misses you. I don't know whether it's applicable because there's just no reason for it.
As for the signage, the only GC that I know of is Gold Coast, which is located somewhere near Brisbane. The only key point that I can pull from this is that my heart craves for the serenity that Kings' Park in Perth enveloped me with in a place where no one knows me.
The next scene involved me being in another building - one with windows. Like loads of it. I attended a conference with my luggage in tow. Due to the mismanagement of planning on my part, I was to rush to the airport to catch my flight once the event was over. As I was about to keep my luggage in a staff-only pantry, someone greeted me at the door with a Caucasian in tow. Both were panting and had panicky eyes. The Caucasian wanted to know where the SAT exam was. My fellow volunteer pronounced it as the past tense of sit whereas I immediately knew what the Caucasian meant. She meant the widely used college admissions test in the States. I then guided her to the examination venue.
The camera panned to the next scene where I was in a room full of people. There was so much chatter that it deafened me. It was just that obstreperous. When the person bent over the table rose to his full height and our eyes met, I instantly realized that it was my college friend. Again, he looked different from what I remembered. His attire was neat yet there was something in his eyes… as if the expression he wore bordered between a thug and a resting bitch face. It was hours later that I lugged my luggage past a sign that read GC and there were people gathered on the silky lawn, minding their own business. The signage even had flowers planted around it.
Let's begin the dream interpretation.
For the abandoned shopping mall, an online interpretation revealed that 'To be overwhelmed but the abandoned building can suggest that you wish to hide away in life. If the buildings have been vacant for a considerable amount of time and that this is closed fairly tight the representation of the psyche. Buildings generally represent our own emotions, problems, and changes'. This is a tad bit too close for comfort for one main reason: it's a reflection of how my mental state of mind is at the current moment. Neither do I want to stand in the crowd nor do I want any attention to be brought on myself whatsoever. I'd rather remain a wallflower and observing everyone in the silence. Since it is an empty building, there's a good chance that the matters I'm dealing with are snowballing in effect. And it's not bringing a positive impact on me.
For my luggage, one of the websites indicated that 'Negatively, luggage may represent the burden of your responsibilities and emotional problems that follow you around. Emotional “baggage” you have problems letting go of. Behavior that may be too high maintenance. Problems you to constantly deal with or talk about. Children you need to look after. Alternatively, dream of luggage may represents a wish to experience something different. You may wish to leave the past behind you or show other people how different you are.' Again, I completely relate to this as my subconscious is sinking from the emotional weight that I'm carrying. No matter how I try to resolve (a particular thing), it just keeps popping out of nowhere and reminding me that I'm a failure. Only my close friend is aware of its extent. I'm batshit sure that if I'm given a chance, I'd trade certain elements for something better. Something that'll soothe the gnawing pain in my heart as well.
For the college friend, how shall I elaborate on his presence in the dream? It's the umpteenth time where he has made himself known, but what stood out was the look he shot me with. It wasn't one laced with anger, but one of unfamiliar familiarity; like me being there brought reminiscence of the things he wanted to forget. Maybe I'm a familiar stranger to him in real life, who knows? However, I read somewhere that psychologically speaking, if you dream of someone, it means that person misses you. I don't know whether it's applicable because there's just no reason for it.
As for the signage, the only GC that I know of is Gold Coast, which is located somewhere near Brisbane. The only key point that I can pull from this is that my heart craves for the serenity that Kings' Park in Perth enveloped me with in a place where no one knows me.
Sunday, March 29, 2020
Feelings of Claustrophobia
I dreamt that I was in a government department to run errands. The space was small and packed with visitors. At the front of the room were cubicles manned by the staff and cordoned off with glass windows as a safety precaution. There were rows of seats for visitors to rest their legs while waiting for their numbers to be called, but some of them resorted to waiting at the corridor. Towards the side were built-in tables and shelves for people to fill in the forms at the last minute according to the department’s guideline. By the time I was there, we could barely move as we were squashed to each other. However, I wasn’t supposed to gain access in my own right and did it undercover as an office cleaner. As the department was located in a building in the city centre with lots of traffic, it was easier for Papa Carrie to pave the way for me to enter. When someone eventually discovered my identity, I rushed to the toilet stall to quickly plan an escape route without being caught.
In another scene, I rode the elevator down to the ground floor with kids in tow. I kept advising them to behave themselves instead of running around in a cramped space as well as jumping up and down. When the elevator doors opened, the kids rushed out into the wide space and disappeared into the distance. Me being the outsider that I was, I surveyed the open area and made my way to the intended place, joining the queue at the bus station while waiting for the bus ride home. I finally saw my housemate across the street and decided to tag a ride home with him since I was still unfamiliar with the bus routes. We explored the area that we were in and it wasn’t until sunset that we came to a consensus that we should head home.
So, let’s begin the dream interpretation.
For the first part of the dream, the place reminded me of the passport department with the long queue and the safety windows. Personally speaking, I reckon that the packed area could constitute the way I’m feeling about the current situation. A quick search online revealed that ‘Dreaming of being part of a crowd can indicate that some times we do not wish to stand out, or that on occasion we do not have a personal sense of direction in regards to how we should accomplish our achievements in the future – in regards to others.’ Based on the sentence alone, it is possible that I’m in a dilemma on what to do with my personal life. I’m not in the same chapter as my friends; they are already way ahead of me. And I prefer to stay behind the scenes without anyone discovering that I’m secretly envious of everything.
For the second part of the dream, hands on, for a moment I figured that I was visiting Japan because of the hiragana and kanji words on the signage. Since there were minors around, I’m going to assume that I might be working in Tokyo as a babysitter. *shrugs* Or on another spectrum, it denotes my longing to be away from this mess and everything that’s weighing me down.
In another scene, I rode the elevator down to the ground floor with kids in tow. I kept advising them to behave themselves instead of running around in a cramped space as well as jumping up and down. When the elevator doors opened, the kids rushed out into the wide space and disappeared into the distance. Me being the outsider that I was, I surveyed the open area and made my way to the intended place, joining the queue at the bus station while waiting for the bus ride home. I finally saw my housemate across the street and decided to tag a ride home with him since I was still unfamiliar with the bus routes. We explored the area that we were in and it wasn’t until sunset that we came to a consensus that we should head home.
So, let’s begin the dream interpretation.
For the first part of the dream, the place reminded me of the passport department with the long queue and the safety windows. Personally speaking, I reckon that the packed area could constitute the way I’m feeling about the current situation. A quick search online revealed that ‘Dreaming of being part of a crowd can indicate that some times we do not wish to stand out, or that on occasion we do not have a personal sense of direction in regards to how we should accomplish our achievements in the future – in regards to others.’ Based on the sentence alone, it is possible that I’m in a dilemma on what to do with my personal life. I’m not in the same chapter as my friends; they are already way ahead of me. And I prefer to stay behind the scenes without anyone discovering that I’m secretly envious of everything.
For the second part of the dream, hands on, for a moment I figured that I was visiting Japan because of the hiragana and kanji words on the signage. Since there were minors around, I’m going to assume that I might be working in Tokyo as a babysitter. *shrugs* Or on another spectrum, it denotes my longing to be away from this mess and everything that’s weighing me down.
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