The Updates - Life and Movies

And so, hiding myself indoors has its downsides - sure, the lack of sunlight has affected my brain, but it has made the isolation dangerously comfortable.

However, the most important thing is that the lack of exposure to fresh air is making me unable to focus on work. Staring at the screen leaves me sleepy, while leaving the windows open tempts my taste buds.

Though the same issue remains: I'd crave home if I'm outdoors and vice versa.

And with that, I forced myself to blend into society instead of continuing to be the hermit that my childhood friend says that I am, heh.

Instead of having my meals to go, I try to dine in at the cafes/restaurants and savor the atmosphere. Or spend a little more time at the gym, working out the stress away, slowly training your muscles, or having small conversations with acquaintances there.

Heck, an overseas-based college mate of mine even informed me months earlier to set aside the specific dates. He wanted to catch up with me while he was back in town after being away for years.

Man, the significant trajectory of my life has sent me spinning in circles. First, my career prospects have been altered due to the recent operational changes, which is a pain but understandable. So, that leaves me back to where I started, but it's okay.

Bite the bullet in persistence, hoping for the best.

Secondly, after years of being guarded and having emotional walls raised sky high, a special someone decided to sneak in through the tiny gaps and slowly knock them down with persistence, assurance, and patience. His actions, combined with one game-changer, eventually moved me.

Here's to a happier future, I guess - though I wouldn't want to say much since we're still in the early stages.

The game-changer? A particular incident at the theme park, where I panicked after being confronted by two of my fears simultaneously. It was one thing to cough nonstop, but it was another thing to be pale and trembling. No matter how I squeezed my own hand or calmed myself down with deep breaths, all I felt was one thing: exhaustion.

Being on the verge of tears as well, I wished that there was someone who could take care of me, allowing me the chance to be gentle and meek again. Being independent and strong all the time was draining the life out of me - and yes, it didn't help that I'm more aloof now than when I was younger.

That aside, since the special someone sensed that work was making me frazzled and snappy, he suggested heading to the cinema for a break.