Thursday, March 5, 2015

Personal Thoughts



Hello again, my dear readers!

As always, you'll have to pardon my tardiness in posting since I'm still working on a suitable timetable that will allow me to incorporate the studies, me-time and le blog perfectly.

Am I nervous about the degree of choice, you may ask? Well, I'm not nervous because of the experience garnered in CPU, but I'm certainly - and heavily - stressed out over the assignments instead. The law seminars and lectures do provide a worthy insight and knowledge, but the work completion will probably make my head spin in circles and leave me pulling all-nighters again.

Not to mention, it doesn't help that I've to deal with moments of being homesick, especially when a passing memory/conversation can trigger it like the flick of a switch, ugh. And, the fear of being bitten in a foreign land. Okay, not literally but figuratively.

Only God knows what I landed myself into. This was certainly not what I deduced or even expected when I made my decision on the location and choice of my studies.



Oh, well, I'll just have to bite the tree bark and persist. I'm sure there's something rewarding waiting for me at the end of this long, arduous and sometimes windy journey.

Before I end up boring you with what would escalate into a lengthy and verbose rant, I shall take my leave.

16 comments:

  1. I know how it feels as I been to college too and far away from home. Just hold on, get yourself some exercise and lift up your mood, affirmed yourself that you can do it and try to feel positive every day. WInd down a bit and have some leisures. This will keep you well! :)

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    1. I'm trying to hold on, Chris. I think it's the effects of being holed up in the apartment and facing the countless assignment papers. I guess I'll be alright once I've made a couple of good friends. =)

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  2. Happy Chap Goh Mei to you.


    Hmmm....sometimes it;s a lonely existence. But just have to bite the bullet and go on

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    1. Ehhh, I didn't know it was Chap Goh Meh already, Small Kuching. Happy Belated Chap Goh Meh to you too. =)

      Yeah, I agree. If everything goes according to our plans, I don't think we'll recognize the world that we are currently living in now...

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  3. That's a new one for me - "bite the tree bark" - I like it and am going to start using it. ;-)

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  4. Keep on going, try your best...but like I always told my girl - she can always give up but give it a really good try first. One road leads to another, many roads not taken. It is not a dead end.

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    1. I'll take your advice to heart, suituapui. Hopefully things will change once I've given it my all. =)

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  5. 2 more months and I reckon you'll sing a different tune. You just need some time to get into stride, me thinks..

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    1. Nah, more like 3 months time, if you ask me, CL. Yup, I concur; it took me almost a month before I was officially comfortable with Auckland's environment (way back when) and another two before I felt like I was part of their society. Perhaps I'll feel much better once I've settled in. =)

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  6. You know, I have bouts of EXTREME loneliness and (sometimes) downright depression when I was studying in Melbourne. It usually happens just when I go back after a visit home, that can be hard but takes at most a couple of days to fix coz my friends in Melbourne would drag me out and remind me of what a wonderful place it is.

    However, I felt that I had SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder) coz I go into depression and general sadness and lethargy during the winter months when it gets dark at 4 pm. I just couldn't get used to the short amount of sunlight in the winter months and it always made me feel crappy. I had a chemical solution back then but nowadays they have UV lamps and light therapy for that.

    Hope everything goes well! <3

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    1. I never knew that, Huai Bin... for my case, I'm deducing that it's because I've never lived here, let alone visited Adelaide. =/

      Ah, those winter months will bring back the misery I sustained in Auckland. Things will change, but maybe only when I'm accustomed to the lifestyle. It's familiar, but not the same. =)

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  7. Hi there ciana. You will do fine. You are going thru one of those 'down' moments which is only natural when one goes thru a big change from routine. Give yrself the timeout n you'll bounce back again... 😀😀😀

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    1. Hello WB! =) I guess you're correct; I might be facing issues with settling in....even my body had a breakdown a couple of weeks, where I wasn't emotionally/physically right. I'm trying to use sports to relieve the stress and anxiety I face. Hopefully it works out. *fingers crossed*

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  8. Hi there ciana. You will do fine. You are going thru one of those 'down' moments which is only natural when one goes thru a big change from routine. Give yrself the timeout n you'll bounce back again... 😀😀😀

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    1. But then again, it's quite tough, especially since it's a brand new environment area for me... and it doesn't exactly help that half of the acquaintances I've met during orientation have chosen a different timetable than me. =/ Maybe I'll feel much better once I've found my bearings, who knows?

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