Saturday, September 28, 2013

Nothing but stress and emoness is twirling in my eyes

It has been so long ago that I experienced what they call an emotional depression and yet, it was on Thursday that I felt it again - but with an even greater intensity.

One minute, I hysterically laughed while watching the repeat of a Taiwanese variety show while at the other minute, I bawled to a sad song. Not to mention, I couldn't call it a night early, not because I was dating heavy assignments but because I was dangerously high on hyperactivity and emoness. My eyes were tired but my mind was wide awake.

As if to tease me, Cookie played a prank on me that left me palpitating and frightened.

"You look like you're going to cry," he consoled with a smirk. "Aww, don't cry..."

I'm not that claustrophobic but combine that with my great fear of the darkness, I could have died from a heart attack there and then. And that's pretty much the reason why I have the fear of riding the elevator with him. I swear, he will repeat history if and when the opportunity rises. >.<

Coffee mania kicked in; while Faustina delivered coffee to her friend nearby, I bought myself an iced cappuccino from San Francisco and one matcha tea latte from Coffee Bean - both were consumed before we made it back to campus. It was not satisfying enough, actually; Teochew Mama and I gulped on cappuccino and sampled on plain pretzels earlier this morning.

I really hope that the emoness will taper down by Monday, because I don't want course mates, especially Dexter and Faustina, asking if I am feeling alright. It's not easy to hide one's emotions, as I have learned. We may be able to remain stoic but our eyes are the mirror that will give our soul away - people will know when we are happy or sad, just by looking at the optic nerve.

And with that, while I embark on a studious affair with my History and World Issues test reviews, I shall leave you all with a video of Teochew Mama's new favorite song.

20 comments:

  1. HEY GIRL...Life is too short to be depress. Realllllyyyy, just be thankful for what you have , think of the unfortunate ones... You will be a lot mroe happier! ;D bake, eat, buy yrself a cuppa coffee..anything that can make yourself happy, because you deserve to be! ;D

    Have a spendid weekend and another good week ahead!

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    1. Hey Eunice, it's nice to see you again! =)

      It's quite difficult for me to think back on what I have so far, as the events of the last two days have left me more confused... Aww, thanks for the advice. I'll be sure to buy myself more coffee tomorrow and vent my frustration through games of table tennis and badminton. ^_^

      Thanks, and you too. =)

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    1. I think it's Irish, suituapui. If I'm not mistaken, there is such a place called Donegal in Ireland.

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  3. You are highly stressed my dear. Stay away from caffeine n have an early nite. You will feel better. Nothing is permanent so this phase you r going thru will pass. Take care n take things easy ok.

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    1. I am, unfortunately, stressed to the max, WB. I can't guarantee that I'll stay away from caffeine because I tend to run for either that or carbohydrate whenever I'm battling stress.

      Yes, WB, I'll definitely try to take things easy and chill whenever possible. Take care too. =)

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    1. Thanks for the advice, WB. ^_^

      I've started picking up table tennis to vent the stress and also, running around on campus. =D

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  5. Bi there, hope you're feeling better now!

    Take good care ya~

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    1. Hey Hayley. Unfortunately, I've feeling worse... amidst the stress that I have to deal with, I'm going through a rough patch in my emotional life that's leaving me so, so blue.

      Yup, I'll try. =D

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  6. The secret of happiness is not in doing what one likes, but in liking what one does.

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    1. Thanks for the encouragement, cquek. ^_^ The thing is, I feel like I have to do the work of 2 people. I've always took pride and happiness in writing, but the stress has really messed up with it. I can barely focus on writing a class script. =/

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  7. i guess sometimes these feelings are difficult to confront because they come and go, and we never really know when they'll return. but hopefully whenever they do return, you'll be ready to face them! take care, ya.

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    1. Yes, it is quite difficult to confront those feelings, Sean. In fact, three days after this post, it intensified and almost left me tearing up in class. >.< Still struggling to paddle through them, but I'll make it through.

      Yes, I'll take care. Thanks.

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    1. It's alright, Yum List...it's just that the emotional depression suddenly returned in the form of a slap in the face and left me so emotionally imbalanced that I'm losing concentration on my assignments, which has never happened before. =(

      I think I'll be back to my normal self soon...

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    1. I'm thinking of taking a break in this period of emotional imbalance and stress, but I just can't, Kylie. I've to run up on my assignments as two are due tomorrow and on Tuesday. =/

      And the stress's gonna be multipled next week. =(

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