Friday, October 28, 2016

Halfway Mark

It’s that time again, sigh. No, no, don’t get me wrong. I’m not whinging about the exams. With the completion of the final test for Indo-Pacific Foreign Policy, this signals the end of my sophomore year. It means that I’ve endured half the battle, which hints that I need to hibernate to regain the mental and emotional energy that was lost in the process.


Don’t judge; I’m crawling my way through the Administrative Law revision and the fact that I barely understood the first 3 weeks ain’t helping me either.

Freshman year was alright; it was fun and games while I struggled to find my footing in law school. When I voiced my desire to pursue a degree in liberal or creative arts, my relatives continuously expressed their disapproval with the number one question being whether I’m able to secure a job uin the field of my choice. Don’t get me wrong, I’m alright with reading law. The part that bugs me is the feeling that I didn’t receive my fair share of the pie. No one in my family is a law graduate, so I never knew the pros and cons of law school until I landed head first in a pool of… sharks.

Oh, boy, did I just write that?!

Did I just compare all of the law students to sharks? *facepalm*

The idea of doing law may resonate with some students, but let me tell you that you’ll have to think thrice about boarding this ship. I’m speaking from my personal experience here and as everyone’s experience in law school is different, feel free to disagree with me. It’s a dog-eat-dog place where you’ve to be cautious of everyone around you. Things will be murkier when you’re an international students who is unaware of the presence of the elites. To be honest, I never expected that I’ll run into kids from private schools. I was already under so much personal and academic pressure that it was tough to deal with them. It took me an entire semester and the winter flight home before I could handle it. But hey, at least I found myself a couple of good friends along the way to smoothen the creases that crept up in my academic journey. One of them is graduating next semester and I’m not sure how I’d react when we see each other in person for the last time at the ceremony. One thing’s for sure; I’ll have to convince myself to maintain a happy smile and to instead send him off with a hug and my best wishes.



Thank you (you know who you are, lol) for allowing me to stumble upon this song. It is a good motivational song for me because it reminds me to bite the tree bark in persistence. Life may throw crazy lemons and expose you to stinky people, but, at the end, success will be waiting to greet you with a truthful embrace.

11 comments:

  1. It must be hard when you have family pressure. Of course they want the best for you, but sometimes what's best for you is following your passion. I know many law/ accountancy/ doctor graduates (careers chosen because of family pressure) who have never practiced and are now owners of restaurants and small businesses. I suppose they have a background to fall back upon, but still I think you're in a challenging position. Good luck my friend.

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    1. It's, unfortunately, the Asian mindset of wanting the younger generation to pursue engineering, medicine, or lawyer, Yum List. Don't get me wrong; my parents are all cool with me doing either law or creative writing. The part that irks me (and still does) is that there's no-one in either side of the family who can provide behind-the-scenes tips and warnings about the dark side of law.

      I guess those folks were lucky that they managed to find success in another career... then again, I could always jump into the pool of writing and follow my passion. ^^

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    2. Thank you for adding my new song to your blog Ciana

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  2. Congrats on making it halfway through law school. It sounds like you have been snowed under for the last few months, and now that exams are over do rest, relax and recharge. Being the only one in your family doing law or really just doing anything yourself can be hard - they might not understand what they are going through no matter how close they are to you. But with many stereotypical Asian parents, I am sure doing law is better than creative arts...

    It takes time to find your footing in what you do. The more classes you attend, the more you know the quirks of your classmates and lecturers, and you learn what to expect...which can sometimes be daunting.

    I LOVE Million Reasons! I love how Lady Gaga sang it on the Carpool Karaoke video. It is such a simple song, yet the lyrics hit the spot for me. Despite the mixed reviews for her new album, I absolutely love it :)

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    1. I'm waiting for the exam results to be released before breathing a sigh of relief. A lot of unexpected things crept up in my personal life, which whacked the life out of me towards the last week. I'm scheduling a couple of coffee sessions with my coursemates/friends to relax after the agonising semester - am waiting for them to be done with their respective exams. My relatives are probably after the honour of having a lawyer in their family, but that's just assuming that I survive law school and chambering in one piece, Mabel.

      I know I'm late compared to my peers, but I guess you could say that I am slowly finding my footing in law school. Now that I've spoken to a couple of adults back home, it's much better dealing with my course mates. How I treat them is dependent on how they treat me. Working life's much tougher and crazier; if I don't learn to cope with this now, I'm screwed after graduation.

      Omg, I know right! It's a different style when you compare it to "Just Dance" or "Bad Romance". "Million Reasons" has a slower, personalised approach to it.

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    2. Waiting for results is so nerve wrecking. I remember at uni I would be waiting for the day the results were released - because you never really know how you can go wrong. It ain't over until you get the results! But if you know you prepared, chances are you should be okay :)

      "Working life's much tougher and crazier" So true, and I can relate so much to this. Having decided to not pursue work in the media and communications field (what I studied), it has been challenging building up my skills across various jobs with nothing to fall back on.

      I still have got Lady Gaga's new album on repeat. I can't wait for her next world tour... Oh dear :D

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    3. Exactly my thoughts, Mabel. I remember being nervous last semester to the point that I dreamt that I was taking the exam - twice! I almost thought that it meant that I busted my Criminal Law paper and had to take the replacement exams. Thank God it was just a dream. I know that I've prepared for Admin Law, but I'm just not sure whether it's enough to let me pass. I don't know, but my psyche just gave up the moment I sat in the exam hall.

      My friend and college lecturer have told me exactly that - working life is full of unpleasant surprises and it tests your patience to the maximum. If I've my way, I don't think my future career would be in the legal industry either... but I guess only time will be able to tell. *sighs*

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  3. I love that new one from Gaga!!! Yet to make an official video for the song, just a lyric video and a whole lot of live performances videos.

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    1. I remember that the same thing happened with Taylor Swift. It took a while before she launched the music video for "Out of the Woods". Not sure if the video for "Clean" is out, though. Lyric videos are much better because it allows the listener to sing along.

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  4. Hi there!!

    Exams... For so many years I din't have any 'exams' already, haha! But I do miss those schooling days and exam times, yes it's stressful but then, we don't always face this kinda 'stress', so I think it's still consider a good thing? :p

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    1. That's true - the stress that we face over exams is miniscule when compared to the one we have to endure in our daily life. I've heard that the stress as a SAHM and working mother is worse than our academic stress, so I guess you're definitely there, Hayley. Exam stress is after all still a good thing.

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